Sep
14
"the mind is everything"
Jun
29
thoughts
i have come to this place several times before throughout my journey through life, and now here i stand more understanding of it than anytime prior. it can be a hard notion to grasp when you realize the people you’ve known for almost an eternity were hiding their true feelings of guilt, denial, and most importantly, greed very cleverly behind a façade of love, compassion, and empathy. there is something to be said about the worlds’ actors, those who live double lives either by choice or chance. very talented people if you ask me. i would like to spend my time debating philosophically why it is that people choose to live this way, hiding from their loved ones behind a wall of lies, deceit, and denial - however “good” their intentions may be. however, as i have mentioned before, this is not my first time arriving at this station of actualization but i would like to make it one of the last. one of my personal, more endearing (depending upon opinion, of course) qualities is my honesty and frankness. i tell people quite often that it is almost impossible for me to lie because even if i can verbally say it, my facial expressions and body language never match up. i guess i have never really found a reason to lie very much, (aside from those rebellious teenage years) and as i’ve grown older, i’ve realized that lying to others is essentially lying to yourself because you’re the one that hears you talk the most. usually you can read my emotions like a book, although i am getting better at concealing those a little. anyway, i think that reflecting upon others and yourself can teach very vital lessons to life - both spiritual and tangible. and although it bothers me quite a bit that most people i’ve known for 22 years a liars, i have recently been trying to adopt the notion that their actions can no longer affect me, at least negatively. i really wish more people didn’t perceive intellectuals as snobs or pretentious, because thinking this hard about mundane events is quite straining, especially when emotions are involved. anyway those are my observations, please don’t take them personally as there is no way they are in reference to anyone who would possibly read this.
Jun
27
so when you’re asked to fight a war that’s over nothing
it’s best to join the side that’s gonna win
and no one’s sure how all of this got started
but we’re gonna make them goddamn certain how it’s gonna end
Jun
26
sometimes, usually more often than not, life can feel like it’s spinning out of control around you. as if you’re at the center of a merry go round, watching a blurred version of reality. but what can you do to stop it? can you close your eyes and hope that the movement doesn’t make you queazy? can you jump off of the merry go round while it’s still moving and not cause any damage to yourself or those around you? or can you simply accept the reaction it gives you and laugh at the silly feelings and thoughts you are given by this distortion of reality? i guess it would be easier to deal with a life spinning out of control if we viewed it as a merry go round. just something to think of for the future, or present, or whenever life may seem like it’s throwing too much your way.
Jun
25
thoughts
This statement couldn’t be more true, and today was a perfect demonstration of that for me. My aunt had a family friend, Robin come over to the house to clean for some extra money. Robin is very creative and one of the nicest people I’ve ever known, yet her past has debilitated her learning process. As a child, Robin was abused physically and emotionally by her father and older brothers, her mother is an alcoholic who chose to turn the other cheek on her family’s malfunctions. As a result, Robin has been stunted in her reading level, causing her to limit her creativity, knowledge, and overall motivation in regards to what she thinks she is capable of. In my opinion, Robin has let her traumatic childhood affect her self esteem to the point that she thinks she can’t possibly ever read because she’s simply not smart enough. It’s terribly astounding how much the human mind controls a persons life, if only more people understood that they themselves are in the drivers seat.
Feb
24
play crack the sky
“but the morning finds our bodies washed up thirty miles west
they say that the captain stays fast with the ship through still and storm,
but this ain’t the Dakota, and the water is cold, won’t have to fight for long.”
Feb
18
Thousands of candles can be lighted from a single candle, and the life of the candle will not be shortened. Happiness never decreases by being shared.
- Buddha
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